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The surgery had left more than the laparoscopic scars.  To date, it still hurts even just to mention November. Please Allah, wash these shameless tears away.  Please Allah, bless us with unbending strength.  Please Allah, wipe those tormenting sins away.

The looming works upset me still.  The harder I tried to stand against its torment, the more unnerving it became.  Only the thoughts of it triggered pain at my left lower abdomen. I tried to use all channels I know.  Through the institution, through my own searching efforts, and through familial supports.  I could only pray for Allah to grant the best resolution.  Allah is the Best of Planners.

Two weeks might healed all physical scars.  But emotionally?  I am not yet sure.