Budge

I have completed everything. But why do something is still budging at the back of my mind? I hope it's the licensing exam. Because it should be the only thing that is in my mind right now. Not anything else.

Friends Never Say Goodbye

There isn't much I haven't shared with you along the road
And through it all there'd always be tomorrow's episode
Suddenly that isn't true
There's another avenue
Beckoning the great divide
Ask no questions, take no side
Who's to say who's right or wrong, whose course is braver run
Still we are, have always been, will ever be as one
What is done has been done for the best
Though the mist in my eyes might suggest
Just a little confusion about what I'll lose
But if I started over I know I would choose
The same joy, the same sadness each step of the way
That fought me and taught me that friends never say
Never say goodbye
Never say goodbye
Never say goodbye
Never say goodbye
Suddenly that isn't true
There's another avenue
Beckoning, the great divide
I would choose
The same joy, the same sadness each step of the way
That fought me and taught me that friends never say
Never say goodbye
Never say goodbye
Never say goodbye
Never say goodbye

by Elton John ft. Backstreet Boys

Acknowledgement (who's in, who's not)

Alhamdulillah for thousands of times, indeed, because I would never have able to complete this thesis project if not because of Allah. There is no other than Allah that keeps my faith and will to light on until the very end.
There is no word grateful enough to express my appreciation to my family for being the sentinels, the inspiration, the courage, the spirits, the reason for me to brave this path of knowledge and life. Without them, I would never have learned how to grow, to walk, to read and write. They are my safest place to hide, full of blessings, prayers and love.
A tremendous gratitude goes to my supervisor, Br. Mohd. Said Nurumal. His precious, priceless advice and help are treasured in this thesis project. My gratitude extends to The Dean of Kulliyyah of Nursing, Prof. Dr. Kamaruzzaman Wan Su, the research coordinator, Asst. Prof. Dr. Laith Issa Yassin AlAraji, the biostatistician, Assoc. Prof. Dr. Jamalludin Ab. Rahman, my co-supervisor, Sr. Sanisah Saidi, my lecturers, Assoc. Prof. Dr. Aishah Ali, Sr. Rubbya Hassan, Sr. Wan Hasliza Wan Mamat, and other Kulliyyah of Nursing lecturers, clinical instructors and administrative staffs. A lot of thanks also intended for nurses, physicians and staffs of Clinical Research Centre, Intensive Care Unit, Cardiac Care Unit and High Dependency Ward of Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan (HTAA).
These four years of grace would never be more blissful without friends to lean on along the way. The joy, fun, tears, love, disputes, winnings and loss my friends have brought into my life draw a momentous chapter of my lifetime story. The comfort and support they give will be cherished forever.
(Ultimately, my appreciation is for someone whose love is like the river. Loyal and caring. Always there and understanding. Patient and loving. Supportive and lively. I couldn't have asked for more from him. Thank you, my love).

End, middle and beginning

It feels like my life stops rotating in a sudden. I am at lost of words to describe the events. The thesis has been submitted. The clinical posting is almost over. The exam result has been posted. The annual graduation dinner has passed. The resume has been sent.
It feels like I am stranded in a middle of a road. I have nowhere to go. Waiting for something, that I am not sure what. It feels like waiting, indeed. For a termination. For a new life. For a new adventure. For a new beginning.