Saturday, January 31, 2009

why do i love the sea?


because the sea reminds me of the Greatness of the Great Creator. the vastness of the sea makes me feel so small, minuscule.

looking at the sea can be calming and disturbing at the sametime. at times, the sea can be mystifying. other times, it can be cheering.

just by looking out at the sea, my heart wants to sing. my heart wants to write a poem. my heart wants to scream. my heart wants to weep.

i love the sea. i love the furiousness of the waves. i love the mysterious sight of the deep sea. i love the feeling of the breeze on my skin. i love the reflection of the moon on the water. i love the sight of the rising sun beyond the horizon.
i simply love the sea.

picture by Laurel Gaylord

Making the right choice

I am so confused. So confused. I dont know which path should I take. I dont want to make the wrong choice. I dont want another heartbreak. I cant stand another stroke of pain. I am not sure I can be whole if I fall again.

Ya Allah, please help this pathetic servant of Yours..

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Reunion of 11th Generation of SMAKJ

friendship never ends...
(*tired from trying to upload the photos~~)

Friday, January 16, 2009

If

I wish i could run all the way to the end of the world and dump my agony away.
Well, dream on Ayuni. That's not gonna happen.
But the pain in my chest is so great i could barely breathe.
If only i could reverse time like Hiro Nakamura did, i would have come clean.
Yet, 'if' is a very cruel word..

Monday, January 12, 2009

End of bitterness

Amazing how forgiveness works isnt it?
I'm happy, sad, relieved at the same time..

Light On


Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road

What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

David Cook

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Run!

To survive in this world, we hold close to us those on whom we depend. We trust in them our hopes, our fears...
But what happens when trust is lost? Where do we run, when things we believe in vanish before our eyes? When all seems lost, the future unknowable, our very existence in peril... All we can do is run.

Heroes, Run! Mohinder Suresh

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Dual

There is good and there is evil. Right and wrong. Heroes and villains. And if we're blessed with wisdom, then there are glimpses between the cracks of each where light streams through. We wait in silence for these times when sense can be made, when meaningless existence comes into focus, and our purpose presents itself. And if we have the strength to be honest, then what we find there, staring back at us, is our own reflection, bearing witness to the duality of life. And each one of us is capable of both the dark and the light, of good and evil, of either, of all. And destiny, while marching ever in our direction, can be rerouted by the choices we make. By the love we hold onto, and the promises we keep..

Hereos, Dual, Mohinder Suresh

Thursday, January 1, 2009

A bright light


I see a bright torch in front of me. It is not so far. Just a few paces away. And I am weary from a long, dark, lonely journey. I want to grasp the torch so much. It will be nice, no, it is necessary for me to have such a bright light in my journey. The presence of this bright light will prevent accidents such as fall. It can help me find the right way. I might pick a wrong lane. But walking with light is better than groping my way through the darkness ahead. Way much better.

My weary heart cheers at the sight of the bright light after a period of pitch-black darkness. I am so cold, I yearn the warmth of the torch.


I sit and weigh my options. I can grasp the torch without considering the torch might belong to someone else. Or the torch can be a trap or a dysfunctioning torch (haha..wtf..) which might blow up the moment i touch it. The younger, inexperienced, careless me may have took the torch without thinking any further. But no, I dont want to make that mistake anymore.


So I sit there thinking. Weighing the benefits and the risks. The torch will be a great help, i know. But if i take the torch and carry it with me through the journey, and the torch may dimmed and burned out before my journey ends. Even worse, it burns out when i need it the most during an adventurous part of my journey. It will be frustrating. The world will seem darker than it has been before. I may have been getting so used to the light or blinded by the bright light that later i forget how to find my way in the dark anymore.


I sigh. I feel like staying there. But what about my journey? I still have a long way to go. I want to see everything the world has to offer. And the bright light. It is a necessity. Or is it a luxury?


Ya Allah.. Alhamdulillah for the bright light. It is a nice sight after a tiring journey. But what do I have to do next?..